I am the strongest woman you will ever know, and at the same time … the most fragile. It is part of my strength that I am not only willing to disclose I am fragile, but insist that I be accepted as a whole person with self-esteem issues like everyone else … and not be expected to be an icon.
The thing about me I think that people misunderstand is how I deal with my self-esteem issues. I try to do the best with the things I can control since there is so much I cannot control. What I can control is whether I am healthy and fit, am sincere, have integrity, do my best, stay true to my purpose, never compromise or sell myself out — or be tolerant for longer than it takes to say “have a nice life” to anyone who wants to complicate my life with drama. I think I piss a lot of people off.
I will quote my hero Nikola Tesla: “You have the Present. I have the Future.”
Tesla was a generous, sincere, naive and brilliant man who was just himself. He was honest and forthcoming. They didn’t get him back then.
We’re in that future. Are we ready?
I am looking for the other people like me — people who who recognize and appreciate a whole person who is not posing to manipulate. I am ME from the first minute to the last moment you lay eyes on me. I don’t have any interest in being anyone else. I love me. I admire and respect me. I have worked hard to become me. There is absolutely no ego in those statements and the people of this world who have a paradigm of love will get that.
My essence is love and joy. I love and trust everyone … a wonderful way to be. It is so preferable to living in fear and suspicion. But it also means I could sure use a savvy buffer. I have an opening for a handler.