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What Came First? The Hummingbird or the Egg?

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Why Hummingbird? Why Humming?

Quantum Purpose Unlimited

… The Wisdom of Uncertainty …

The search for security and certainty
is actually an attachment to the known.
And what is the known? The known is our past.
The known is nothing other than
the prison of past conditioning.

Deepak Chopra

Shaman death is the symbolic death of the initiate
to the old ways of life and personal identity.

Rebirth: American Indian Bat Medicine

It just happened, that’s all. It was gradual. The message came to me again and again this year that I have been in “deep shift,” and that I was dying to my old life. Before making any conscious decision to do so, I began slowly pulling up roots by letting go of much of what I had devoted all of my time and energy to in my work and in my personal life, and began to pull away from people in my city. I came to realize I was clearing my life of everything and everyone (and soon to be every place) that was unnecessarily draining my energy, and began funneling all of my energy into one focused purpose — for the first time in my life.

It was a slow process as I have had to ultimately look at all of my relationships with the people and with the things upon which I have built my identity … at how my self-esteem has been based on the acceptance and support of friends and on my possessions and accomplishments. What I began to see clearly is that people and things were the very reason I had low self-esteem.

I have been harshly forced into facing that the people I loved were not really getting me, accepting and supporting me, and no amount of waiting and hoping and proving myself would ever get them to see who I really am and treat me differently — or be capable of being different themselves. I had to accept them, let them go, and love them from another place.

I have been harshly forced into facing that the things I own and the things I did and thing I was most proud of about myself, which all determined my identity — were just symbols of success I was clinging to that were actually the very things keeping me from true fulfillment of my ultimate potential.

The good is the enemy of the best.

I have made drastic decisions in answer to these realizations. I have not been cheerful and swift in making these changes. I allowed myself to be pounded again and again by circumstances until my stubborn and tenacious little self got the message. LET GO!

The most powerful and meaningful circumstance in a year of unbelievable challenge was the discovery that, yes, I … Cleansing Queen Of The World … had the threat of cervical cancer hanging over my head … again. And how did this happen when I live (mostly) right and fast/cleanse 30-40 days a year? I figured it out quick:

Stress!

I was chagrinned that I had allowed an unacceptable level of stress to be such a part of my life for so long that I found myself backed into a corner by something I had arrogantly stated many times I would never have to face. What a come-uppence. And I did not take it well. My efforts at healing myself were half-hearted and half-assed. And then I allowed yet another … oh, several actually, REALLY STRESSFUL things to happen, resulting in what work I did do to heal myself being undone.

Now, I say I allowed these things to happen; certain things occurred because of the actions of other people beyond my control. My self-esteem was (and has always been) such that I was not able to recognize the unacceptable behavior of key people in my life for too long — until I became sick and then saw it for what it was and did something about it. If I had become conscious of the truth sooner and made hard choices sooner, I could have saved myself much. But really, looking back, I don’t think I could have done things any other way, as my nature is to love, to always see the good in people, and to give freely, and I had not yet made the connection between such matters and my self-esteem. Ego was muddying the waters. But these events forced the issue!

To provide little background for better understanding: I had been teaching people how to live a lifestyle of being clean in a toxic world: hosting a very intensive cleansing/detox retreat for the last seven years — a program I designed, and I drew my clientele from all over the country. It was essentially for healthy, spiritually-oriented people who wanted to be even more healthy and clear. I was well into the process of moving my business to Costa Rica when my life took an unexpected turn with the unraveling of several things I thought I had under control: my health, relationships (employee/friendship … I had been single and not dating for some time by then) and my career.

The process that had begun organically, of eliminating from my life the pursuits and influences that were draining me, was spectacularly propelled into a conscious, deliberate, and drastic clearing of the decks. Nothing about the way I had been living and approaching things was right for me anymore. Suddenly what I had been doing for a living for seven years was no longer my job, and I could not do it anymore. This of course meant no income too, but that was a choice I had to make to be in my integrity of purpose.

The surprising turn came about because in order to provide the main alternative treatment of the program at the location I had chosen in Costa Rica, I invented a device that is considered by a certain government agency that regulates these sorts of things to be a medical device. Due to many factors, all of which directly related to or derived from my health, I made the hard choice to close my retreat business so that I would be able to really concentrate on healing myself and devote myself without distraction to the development of the invention. The invention adventure involved numerous generations of prototypes, writing a patent specification, researching that government agency’s approval process and writing the submission, setting up manufacturing and assembly procedures, making marketing plans, researching export regulations, and establishing my business structure, etc. I didn’t realize it when I began, but I had waltzed right down into the rabbit hole and it turned out to be a much more daunting undertaking than I ever could have imagined. I was completely naïve when I started. I am grateful I did not know what I would go through when I started, because I would have known for sure I could not do it. But I did it, and I am doing it.

My choice to close my business was also made clear by the fact that as much as I had tried to hire “experts” again and again to help me with the invention process, no one ever came through (part of the major stress of the year) and I finally had to stop doing anything else and concentrate full-time on the invention. I just couldn’t do it all, and this was the most important thing. So I just became every kind of expert I had to be to get the invention work done. Finding all of this capacity in me further distanced me from my old life and old way of doing things and old way of thinking. I amazed myself, and from the pain of being let down over and over, emerged a newfound understanding that I could do anything. I lost the last of my fear that had held my self-esteem hostage to waiting to be rescued.

All year, despite the stress and the crazed hard work, I was staying centered and clear, and felt the most powerful I had ever been. But then the balance I couldn’t seem to keep, and that had become my present, moment to moment struggle … was to be even close to grounded. I could not find a tether anymore. Nothing I used to do to reign me back in was working. No amount of coffee, or heavy food could stop me from buzzing. My vibration is, was, and had been all year, disconcertingly high. It has been demanding. There have been times I have thought “this is all I can stand.”

While I was in South Florida arranging for the manufacturing of my invention, I received a phone call from my good friend, who is also my general practitioner MD. She called to tell me that the result from my latest pap smear was back up to severe, and that she was scared. She said I as much as had cancer, and that I need to stop fooling around. She had gone along with my insistence to heal myself again naturally, as she had seen me do it eight years before. But what I was doing this time was obviously not working … mainly because I had a poor attitude and I wasn’t really doing consistently what I knew to do. Her fear startled me, so I relented and agreed to go in for treatment when I got home.

My first week home, before I could get an appointment with an OBGYN, I had a “come-apart.” That’s Southern for “de-compensating.” That’s medical for going into a spin. Anyway, I experienced a lot of emotional and spiritual turmoil while living with the idea that I had cancer. I went through the process in my mind about how I felt about my life, and what I thought about death. It was heavy stuff, and I faced it head-on. And then on “Cosmic Epiphany Day” … the day the world moved out of Saturn-in-Cancer and into Saturn-in-Leo (thank you Jesus) I had an epiphany!

I realized I had done … or was doing, and was almost done … what I came here to do. I knew the immense importance of my invention and what an impact it was going to have on many individual lives, and what the energetic ramifications were going to be to the entire earth because of it. And I knew the thing I had to do was to finish it and get it to the point where it was out there and had a life of its own and did not need my energy anymore. Then I would be done.

It was a revelation. I didn’t know before that that could happen. I’d never heard of such a thing. I always thought life was about ”the journey” and that you never really arrived. That may be so for most, but for me the knowing came that I was reaching a point of arrival and decision. Somehow I had remembered what I contracted to do when I agreed to this incarnation, and was picked and picked on until I grudgingly did it while walking through fire. And then, there it was … the destination was in sight, and I had to start making decisions about what next.

“For I am already being poured out like a drink offering and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the course, I have kept the faith.”

II Timothy 4:6-7

I was already feeling myself slipping away. It was (is) an amazing feeling! It is frightening and exciting and paralyzing at the same time. It feels like hundreds of thousands of volts are rushing through my body and that all I can do is be still and dematerialize. It calls up a wonderful poignancy that can only be described as Joy … but joy according to C. S Lewis’ definition in his book “Surprised by Joy: “Sehnsucht.” It is no surprise I did my senior paper on this concept in College.

Lewis describes Joy — Sehnsucht — or “The Great Desire” as a momentary grasping of the Divine … such a profound and unforgettable feeling that could be even a particular kind of grief, but if it were within your power to feel, you would not trade it for all of the pleasures of the world.

It has brought me to tears many times. It has made me long to melt into nothingness. It leaves no room for ego and self, but as you drift away you look back on yourself with an amazing detached compassion, like a mother’s love for her sweet sincere little child who has tried so hard and has suffered such painful bewilderment. For her the tears come. There is a feeling of sadness and inevitability. And a tingling anticipation without a shred of uncertainty as you await the opening.

This feeling, this knowing, this thing happening to me … I don’t shy away from anymore. I welcome it and do what I know contributes to the raising of my vibration like fasting and cleansing and staying in a state of Karma Yoga and constant prayer most of the hours of my day. I might not understand what is happening to me, but I relinquish myself to it … to the flow … to surfing the Mystery, because it is why I am here and that matters more than being here.

I have been working my whole life, and most especially these last years, since the moment I made the decision and the promise to reach the full potential of my Soul in this incarnation — to be my most authentic self in service to God, the Universe and the purpose for which I came. And in doing so, in living life at the speed of Life Force Energy, the equal and opposite reactions had pummeled me, and I was beat up. I reached such a low … or high point one day that I realized: I had absolutely nothing better to do than to save the world.

If I do nothing but keep myself clean and conduct energy into this world, then I am doing my purpose to save the world. I began to realize it is the purpose of many conscious souls on this planet to save the world.

So I let go and decided to revel in my delusions of grandeur, and never fold up my wings again. I was relieved to know that I was almost done, and that if I felt I had to go, then I could go. But I could also decide to stay. I realized there was so much I could do, that I am prepared to do, that I am poised and ready to do … that aren’t my dreams, but the dreams of so many other people who are not as ready and do not possess the resources I do and where-with-all to live their dreams. If I stayed, then I would be, as I had already written nine months before in my Costa Rica Business Vision: “The benefactor of dreams.”

I also realized that if I were already dead (albeit symbolically), then no one could ever hurt me again. I would be invincible.

When I went to see the doctor, he knew I had waited nine months to seek treatment from my first irregular pap, and he said to me almost in anger, “You know this is serious don’t you?!”

I said, “Yes sir.” And from that moment on, I no longer took it seriously.

For some time I had been skirting burn-out in my work running such an intense one-on-one cleansing retreat. This was largely due to the fact that on my website, which was one of the things I had attached my identity to, had a large section telling my story and many pictures of me were displayed throughout. People connected with me from my website, and when they came, they came to get my undivided attention. This was a choice I made from the start for pragmatic reasons. My business was located in a city not only not known for it’s health and spiritual consciousness, but known instead for the exact opposite. In order to attract clients, there had to be something unique to draw them in. That was me. I received a lot of comments and feedback that the personal nature of my message touched and inspired people. I wanted to continue to share my observations of life from a personal perspective, but I didn’t want it to be about me anymore. How would I do that? I didn’t know.

I felt it necessary on September 8th, 2005 to make a call to the manufacturer of one of the devices I had been using in my practice for many years to find out about the political and governmental climate of the alternative health industry in the country from his point of view and involvement in a recent momentous industry-changing lawsuit. He gave me the behind the scenes overview of the situation, which illuminated and clarified questions that had arisen from the research I had done related to my invention. I hung up the phone realizing that in devoting my life to doing good and helping people empower themselves to reach perfect health and spiritual enlightenment, that I was considered by our government to be an outlaw and was in true peril!

To make matters worse, one of the people named in that horrendous lawsuit had my name. I decided then that I must keep my name out of having any involvement with the marketing of the invention and decided I must remove my website from the internet so that in the approval process of my invention, there could be no direct access to the views on the benefits of the modality I had so brazenly held for so many years. I decided then that I needed a bare-bones marketing website to sell the device to people who were looking for it from a foundation of their own convictions, and a separate website not associated with the invention to give the information and guidance that had been available on my very large website … and also to expand it to be much more, as it would no longer be about my retreat business.

I had been teaching for many years concepts that had come to me in a language I had developed from Quantum Physics that explained truth in a fresh vocabulary that people found easy and accessible. I had seen my words speak to my clients struggles in a way that finally got through when the same concepts in the over-used Christian vernacular hadn’t made sense to them even after a life-time of hearing the words. I live in Quantum (magic and miracles and mystery) and I speak in Quantum.

What I had to awakened to and had begun to nourish through all of this was a cosmic perspective, a global vision for the raising of the vibration of the world, a manifesting propensity, a knack for prosperity, a new way to generate a lot of income, total abandonment to my purpose, unswerving drive, and a lot of audacity.

I realized my purpose was a Universal Purpose for which many people on the Earth are here. I began to call it Quantum Purpose and made the intention to become a magnet to draw together, and an agent of activation — for the others who are here for this Purpose, and with whom I have Sacred Contracts to facilitate their (meanwhile my own) evolution. It was as Quantum Purpose insinuated itself into my plans and then proceeded to dominate, that I began to consider how to have a website that supported the invention without giving away that it was associated with the invention.

I decided since it was my purpose to raise the vibration of the world, it didn’t matter if people bought my invention in particular — just as long as they used whatever resources were available in whatever price range they could afford. I would link to all devices and services that could help people reach their goals.

Then I began to ponder how I could get across the great experiences and information in my story, which so many people had related to me had moved and inspired them, without using my name. The solution: to use a nom de plum. At first I thought of using something cute and edgy like Susie Quark. But then a knowing came to me: just something symbolic. Hummingbird. It came as quietly as that. And since that moment I have gained an understanding how symbolic and perfect it is.

First thing I turned to is what Hummingbird represents in American Indian Animal Medicine:

Hummingbird knows instinctively where beauty abides and, near or far, she journeys to that place. She moves comfortably within a beautiful environment and help others taste the succulent nectar of life. Hummingbird disdains ugliness or harshness, and quickly flies away from discord or disharmony. Hummingbird is a fragile medicine, its target is Beauty and Hummingbird’s mission is to spread joy or to be destroyed. Hummingbird quickly dies if caged, caught, or imprisoned.

http://www.birdclan.org/hummingbird.html

While I am as much the Eagle, I find it more appealing and fitting to be a Hummingbird. Of all of the American Indian Animal Medicine meanings, the Hummingbird has always given me the most hope. If I get to choose, Hummingbird or Eagle, I choose the little thing. I went online looking for pictures of Hummingbirds and I found one that stunned me when I first saw it, and still does every time I see it. She is me. I realized that immediately. I thought then, wouldn’t it be perfect if the next time I worked with the medicine cards, if I got the Hummingbird card? That would let me know that this was really guidance I was receiving. And the next time I was guided to choose a card, I did get the Hummingbird card! But in contrary — upside-down. I was dashed and confused. I didn’t understand. The message was all about fragility and sadness. I thought I was ready finally for joy. That was the deal — my terms for staying! I couldn’t figure it out so I decided to leave it until morning. The next morning I read over it again, determined to do nothing else until I understood. My whole life had been so framed in disappointment and sadness. Yet I have been eternally hopeful and have unceasingly believed I was made to love and to experience joy. Then I got it. Immediately I wrote:

“Sorrow is better than laughter, for by the sadness of the countenance, the heart is made better.”

Ecclesiastes 7:3

We come, we forget, and then we try to remember. But in our haze of forgetfulness, we are stuck in duality. Until we can remember that everything is one and accept without judgement, we will only see good and bad, light and dark, up and down, win and lose.

We will be stuck in the illusion that if we can just get the good, the light, the up, and the win … all will be well. We try and try and try, and we get the good and the light and the up and the win, only to be dashed and disillusioned to realize that it has brought with it the looming anxiety that the bad, the dark, the down and the lose will show right back up and take it all away again. And so it usually does.

Then we realize … too late … that back when all we had was the bad, the dark, the down and the lose — the other side was there all along as opportunity calling us to transform.

So round and round we go, struggling with the two-edged sword of everything we think we want.

Until one day we realize that the two sides of everything are the same, and we accept the bad with the good, and the dark with the light, and the down with the up, and the lose with the win … because we get it finally that you can’t have one without the other.

And then we look at people who are content with unexamined lives and realize we wouldn’t change places.

We are grateful, after all, for the struggle … as it is the other side of peace.

We accept.

“Sorrow is Joy in another Reflection.”

Poof! The duality vanishes. We once again remember, everything is one.

I then started seeing Hummingbirds. I had been putting watermelon rinds outside by my kitchen door as I found it attracted butterflies. One day I saw an Emerald Green Hummingbird hovering by the watermelon through the screened door. A couple of days later, after a walk at the Botanical Garden’s, I saw an Emerald Green Hummingbird hovering by my car in the parking lot.

Then a couple of days after that is when the real miracle happened. Here is an email to a friend on September 20th:

I just had one of the most extraordinary experiences of my life!

I went to Hollywood Video … a place I never go, because I wanted to rent The Merchant Of Venice, and they were the only place that carried it. When I got into my car to leave, I saw a hummingbird fly up to the window of the building and hit it a few times, and then fall to rest on the window sill stunned. This was a very odd place for a hummingbird to be, in the middle of a commercial area with no beautiful garden nearby. I got out of the car, gently picked up the little thing, and got back into the cool car. I opened my hand to see if she was alright. She just lay there, still, but her eyes were alert.

I didn’t know what to do. I just sat there looking at her and praying she wouldn’t die. I decided to drive home, try to feed her some watermelon juice and set her free in a more wooded environment.

I drove home carefully, and she just sat in my open hand the whole way. When I pulled into the driveway, and stopped, she took flight tentatively and settled on the dashboard. It was then I saw an amber light shine through her chest feathers from where her heart must be. It really was a light! It glowed.

She flew around a few more times, but clearly was exhausted.

I picked her up again and took her into the house and up to my bedroom where the French doors were wide open with no screens, and in retrospect … in the exact location where a ley line pops up into my house! I let her loose, and ran downstairs for the watermelon. I brought it up, put some juice in a clear bowl, tipped it and held it to her beak. I saw her little tongue that was no bigger than a hair come out from the end of her beak to lap up some juice. She then took flight, right out of the open doors, high above the trees and away.

I’ve put the watermelon rind out on the deck full of juice in case she returns.

I took a few pictures, but they are too close for her to be in focus. She is a vivid emerald green, with a bright amber light in her chest!

I prayed that day with a prayer so solid, there was not one wavering molecule in my mind or heart. I said “Please God. Please Universe. Give me another chance to photograph me holding a hummingbird.”

I now have hundreds of pictures and video

The preparing my submission to that government agency in order to market in the US, was one of the most daunting elements of this whole amazing experience. It was the “slaying the dragon” and I could not make a false step. I removed my retreat website from the internet so they would not be able to reference it for my view on the benefits of the associated therapy. I had my lawyer submit it on his letterhead in my company name, keeping my personal name out of it — to avoid confusion because of the other person with the same name involved in the Texas lawsuit. Dealing with that government agency is a very tricky business. I was told by lawyers and consultants who had worked there that they would never approve my device. But after almost two years of research, and writing, and making TWO submissions, they returned the decision that they did not regulate my device. Therefore, it is legal to market in the US as long as I continue to observe their limits and regulations, especially in terms of the claims I make for my device.

My intent in presenting my writings under another name is just to have a way to offer the important support information that I am making available on this website without breaking the law, losing all of my inventory, being shut down, thrown in jail and fined a million dollars. (I am not exaggerating.) I do not have a firm grasp on how to maintain a nom de plum and online identity separate from my in-person identity.

Hummingbird fits. I am always still it seems, yet moving at the speed of Life Force Energy! I am always humming, vibrating, buzzing … feeling the energy go through me. Sometimes it seems too much. I am surrounded by beauty, and yet even my gilded cage has caused me sorrow. I seek beauty in the world, and I always find it. My nature is to love, and my essence is joy.

I have changed. I have evolved. I have left karma behind and now it’s dharma time! I now have only my Purpose in my heart and mind, and the determination to live my Ultimate Potentiality in unfettered Joy.

It doesn’t matter who I am. We are all ONE.

“One’s own name and form and self-concept are more like a constellation being named, with lines drawn in between the points of light to shape into a form — a concept superimposed upon reality, somewhat different than reality itself.”

Lama Surya Das

That’s Why Hummingbird

Epilogue

The story gets more interesting. The Texas Jennifer with the conventional spelling of two “n”s law suite was easily found when Googling her (my) name (spelled wrong). I started getting calls from people who thought it was me, and probably didn’t get hundreds of calls from people who thought it was me. Suddenly that name was a career killer. When a copy of her law suite came back to me along with my international patent search, I knew I had to legally change my last name.

The day I was born my great grandfather telegramed my mother to name me Jenifer with one “n” so that I would have 7 letters in both my names (I have no middle name) because “Seven is the Heavenly number.” I needed my new last name to have seven letters in it, but it was such a big decision, I didn’t know what to do. And then the moment came when it occurred to me to count the letters in Hummingbird.

That’s Why Humming

Next, see the Gallery of Hummingbird Pictures beginning with the first blurred pictures that I took the day I rescued the first hummingbird with the glowing amber heart.

Programming, Purpose, Projection and BIG DREAMS

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All any of us has is our own way of perceiving the world. There are as many paradigms as there are people. Most people don’t give credit where credit is due as to why they have the particular frame-of-reference they have. People think they are doing their own thinking when the truth is: they have been programmed their entire lives to hold arbitrary and indefensible basic beliefs that conflict with their deep inner knowing. Almost without exception, the first thing we were programmed to ignore was our innate sense of truth.

For example: you are a young child in your room late at night and are awakened by shouting. You know something is wrong. You get out of your bed and stumble sleepily out to the living room where your parents are obviously angry and arguing. Then they see you. In the sudden silence you say “Mommy, Daddy, what’s wrong?”

They both automatically snap “nothing … go back to bed.” So you go back to bed bewildered trying to reconcile this new information that your natural perceptions are wrong. Thus begins your life-long cognitive dissonance between what you are told is how things are instead of what you intuit. In other words, you are taught from even before sentience not to trust your feelings, intuition and judgement. Strike ONE to your self-esteem and safety. You are helpless and need to be guided through the minefield of a dangerous world where nothing is as it seems.

You have been programed your entire life by your parents (who were programed by theirs) by your school, your church, current societal norms, television, the news, advertising and so on. How long were you allowed in your early life to do your own thinking? Do you remember a time when your true perception of anything was affirmed by anyone? Or have you been indoctrinated from before memory by unconscious people, organizations and pervasive business entities with massive bottom-line agendas, the government and (enigmatically, she writes) BEYOND? The ways to subliminally program you have increased exponentially since you were a child. You are indeed at risk in a world where nothing is as it seems.

I remember the moment it occurred to me to begin to think for myself. It was after everyone I loved and whose approval I sought in my family died in my early thirties in quick succession. The devastation is not describable to anyone who has not experienced it. It’s like trying to explain the color blue to someone who has been blind from birth. But there are those of you who do know how that feels, and you know what the people around you can’t understand: there is no time-limit on grief. But there is a time-limit on how long you are permitted to appear to grieve.

I didn’t bounce back fast enough to suit some people. I tried to appear to be fine on the surface, but the tragic losses of the most important people in my life was something I had to deeply process and I had to withdraw to do that. I was reeling from how drastically my life had changed in such a short amount of time and was trying to see a way to move forward with the future I was planning before everyone died. Then came that moment … that forever life-changing epiphany: everyone whose approval I had spent my entire life trying to gain (with limited success) was gone.

Were my plans to get a Master’s Degree what I wanted or what they expected? Was the future I was unconsciously walking into the future I chose for myself? Or was it a future I imagined would please these people whose love and acceptance I craved so much. Was it a future of living inauthentically, even to the point of being incapable of having the awareness of what my dreams and purpose might be if the pressure of family and societal expectations were ever lifted from me?

Well … they were lifted from me. Pow! I was right smack-dab in the middle of tabla rasa!  It was a drastic way to arrive at that blessed moment and I don’t recommend it, but that’s what it took to get me there.

Why am I telling this story on this baffling website? I am telling it to help … probably only a handful of people who feel oddly drawn in to unravel the mystery of why such a peculiar website exists and who this bizarre woman Jenifer Humming is … from a place of self-trust. I am explaining this to the very people who don’t need the explanation because they already think for themselves.

One more little story before I get to the punchline:

The TV was on in my kitchen many years ago when I still had TVs in my house that worked. I was just listening to it while I was preparing some food. A news program was on featuring a prominent and popular Television evangelist with a ridiculously huge church/congregation in Texas who I had heard about, but had never seen him or heard him preach.

My career was in transition at that time from owning and running an intense cleansing health retreat to self-manufacturing and marketing my new medical device invention. In both of these endeavors, I had a lot of intense interaction with people.

The next thing I am about to say is INFORMATION, not braggadocio and is integral to this story and this entire post:

The most common feedback I got from my health retreat clients and from my medical device customers were these exact words: “You’ve saved my life.

I heard on the television program the interviewer ask the evangelist what it felt like for so many people to tell him: “You’ve saved my life.

I STOPPED what I was doing, turned toward the TV and said aloud my immediate thought before he had time to respond. I said: “If he says ‘humbled‘ then I will believe he is for real.”

He became teary. I became teary. He barely got the word out … “Humbled.”

So again, why have I written this blog post?

I have received feedback recently from an initial in-person encounter with several people and from a couple of acquaintances appraising this website — that I come across as an ego-maniac with a superior attitude.

Tell me something I haven’t heard before. Please.

AND — One long-time friend I love and respect even told me after reading the beginning of an autobiographical account I wrote a decade ago for my health retreat website of my journey of cleansing and awakening to my Purpose, that it was all “I … I … I.”

Fact: when your health retreat is located in Birmingham, Alabama instead of Costa Rica, you have to give people a reason to choose your retreat over one in Portugal or Thailand. Aside from the fact my retreat was one of the most intense comprehensive programs available, the only other marketing tool I had was ME: my life-changing experience; my story; my congruency. In short … my RESULTS. Anyway, is it possible to write autobiographical stories without using the word “I” a few times?

This reaction to me came from people I felt only love and acceptance for and for whom no critical thoughts even crossed my mind. There is nothing in my paradigm that finds fault or automatically takes our differences personally. Prior to receiving this feedback, if I were inclined to evaluate them based on their parameters, I could find fault with them and judge them similarly. But for some reason, (I know what the reason is, by the way) I am not wired to judge, project and find fault. Nor do I write what I write, say what I say, do what I do, dream what I dream and hope what I hope from a place of ego. It’s not possible. My Purpose as described on this site came to me all at once and I have willingly contributed my free-will to whatever it takes to be the implementor of this vast and improbable vision. I didn’t know what I let myself in for, but anyone who has experienced this will understand: ego is the first thing to go when true LIFE PURPOSE arrives.

I do, however, push back when I am pushed, do not shield people from natural consequences and often speak in a direct way that people in these parts call “Northern.” But that’s another Tolstoy novel.

Therefore, even in the face of decades of being judged, I know WHO I am and HOW I am and how I am perceived. I am self-disclosed and self-referred. I won’t hide and I won’t apologize for being myself from start to finish. I wrote many years ago I decided to nevermore fold up my wings and hide who I am to make other people feel comfortable, pander to their egos and investment in maintaining the status quo of their past conditioning. I realized that was not going to be the easy way to gain people’s approval and support, but it would certainly sort out quickly whether I would even want their approval and support.

To be blunt: anyone who sees ego in me is projecting their own onto me. If you read the previous statement and think it comes from denial and a need to be right, you are projecting your denial and need to be right. It’s what people do. I’m not angry about it. I’m used to it, but I can’t get anywhere until more people learn to automatically make positive assumptions rather than negative assumptions … or no assumptions at all. Google The Four Agreements.

No matter what you think you see, things are seldom as they seem and you cannot draw conclusions until you know the whole backstory, and even then why pronounce judgement? Why not have compassion instead?

If you decide to even care to wonder how I truly regard myself instead of making assumptions based on a shallow glance at me and my approach to sharing my vision and my life-experiences, here is is: I feel humble and humbled. I am a servant. What leader is not? Read several of my earlier writings posted in November 2010 if you want more clarification on why I write the way I do and where I stand on the subject of self-perception and arrogance.

Let’s make a deal. I won’t judge you … in fact, I will love, admire and support you. I will make positive assumptions about you. I will be kind to you and help you any way I can. If you join me with an open heart and a serious commitment to persevere, I will facilitate you to reach every goal you have now and every goal you can’t even imagine now that you could have. I might not always seem sweet and sometimes my love may be tough, but you will always know where you stand with me. I will be honest and consistent. That is what is inside of me for you. That’s how I think. I have no agenda but the Will of Heaven. Either you recognize me or you don’t.

This website reveals just a sliver of who I am. It is a cursory overview of what I want to accomplish and am capable of accomplishing along-side of many other people who share my vision. I am awaiting the arrival of the people I know must exist (because I exist) who are authentic enough to communicate through understanding rather than to alienate with assumptions. I am here to help people and to help the planet. I am here to help people who are here to help people and to help the planet. My dreams are not small dreams. People are out there who also do not operate from ego and can perceive other people with loving understanding because they love and understand themselves. Those people, who I don’t yet even know (in this life), are more my family than my family. Together, we can do anything.

This website is just how I want it to be but you won’t “get it” unless you read all of it, watch the videos and presentations and assume the best. It’s not an elevator ride, so chances are, you will be on to the next website, and the next and the next. It’s a Brave New World and there’s plenty of information out there to distract us.

But there are those of you who are ready for SOMETHING in this crazy world to come into focus and make everything make sense. You don’t need more propaganda. It’s for you I want to be a real person behind a ridiculously big vision. I want to be accessible. I want to be serious, funny, even make fun of myself (have you noticed? Do you appreciate nuance?) I want people to know how I came to know what my PURPOSE is and how much I have worked, how much I have spent and how much I am ready, willing and able to do to make it a reality. I want to be a voice people can find who are in search of their grand purpose … or already know what it is and are searching for collaborators. I want to exemplify what I stand for. I speak up when I do. I am quiet when I fall short. There is no one out there who is capable of being harder on me than I am on myself. But there is also no one who loves and understands me better than I do myself.

Maybe you are an anomalous dreamer too who could also make a big difference in this world if you were given the chance.

Here’s to BIG DREAMS coming true!

The Fifth Dimension Call From Archangel Michael

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As the …

Magnificent Expression of the ALL in evermore

I am the Blue Star emanating swirling Siren songs to lure

Your hearts oh chosen Earthians remember and embrace

Epiphanies to loose your trepid bonds for GAIA’S sake

You see …

I am the Commander of the free will you assigned

In Sacred Contract to the Earth which is your only bind

In time the time is now — report to do your highest call

In your ultimate expression of your essence of the ALL

You …

Are my Dharma army that is born into this age

Receivers and conductors of the energy to save

Our beloved Gaia in the Purpose we are one

Indigo and Crystal souls who’ve come to get this done

You’ve …

Advanced to a dimension that’s serene and High Above

The paralyzing mind-confounding waves that cancel Love

I’ve tuned you to the frequency to receive Divine commands

Hasten on the trail I’ve blazed to where you’ll take your stands

The Universe loves speed and there is no more time to waste

The best of you will hear me now – The best of you make haste

To be courageous souls who within this fateful hour

Will mightily and gently plant the first Redemption Flower

Commitment to fulfill is your Divine imperative

It is the very reason you were ever sent to live

Your thoughts, your Will, your actions you contributed to this

Honor then your Promise — nevermore resist

I am the …

Point of the convergence of unending energy

Spriraling in a vortex to condense to gravity

As Above so is below as I have come to do my Quest

I am magnetized to bring to form —  my thoughts to manifest

Together Hamied and I have formed our devic seal

Higher Law prevails though lower laws do seem so real

Daily miracles abound — I only need request

And Hamied with Love intense will do for me the rest

Faith and hope and solitude have kept me company

But just beyond the veil there is a ship I cannot see

I Captain it amid a crew of Light and power Divine

My Number One, My Angel Guard has been there all the time

By Michael I am authorized to wield his sword of fire

And call for the assistance of the angels to conspire

This fouteener to pierce the minds of mortals who would gain

To carry out with me the Will of Heaven here to Reign

Seeking first the Universe with Fortunata at my side

I follow Bliss and beingness and all things Sanctified

Authentic power and legions of support will never cease

Still I pray for Kaeylarae to always grant us Peace

Truly Bliss is your reward, the Love that pulls your heart

Don’t hesitate, your soul does really want to play its part

There is no yoke more light than to relinquish to the flow

There’s nothing more to tell you — there’s nothing more to know

Up Front With The Macheté

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You will find my “personal story” recounted on this web site in extensive detail. I have much written about my work and my purpose and my life that intimately reveals the essence of who I am — which is how I have always taught — by not bothering to teach, but by just being who I am and being honest about it. If anyone is drawn to read my web site, it means they were vibrationally attracted (Physics Law of Attraction) and that they have now or will soon have the exact same lessons to learn, or vast dreams to build.

I have chosen to open up my life in writing for a number of reasons. The main reason is that I am strongly compelled to do so for my own personal growth, to record my observations and my process in a conscious, self-disclosed, and symbolically interpreted way. Mine is a life examined. However, in offering my account of the always interesting and often magical events and interpretations of my journey, my intention is also that you will be inspired as you will see yourself in my experiences — and in doing so, give the information the opportunity to resonate and catalyze transformation in your life. I often say: I do not have all of the answers. I am just the “Helen Keller” of the Universe … feeling my way along. If you have found this site and choose to benefit from what I have to share, please know it’s not because I have it all figured out. I am just up front with the macheté.

We Have to Save the World Every Day

I want to be clear about how I see my purpose and the way I am changing the world. My most significant contribution is energetic. If I do nothing but keep myself a clear conduit to conduct energy into this world, then I have done what I came here to do. People always say we cannot save the world. I say we save the world every day. Every day Earth School stays open is a day saved. Jesus said greater things shall we do. I believe that and I take it seriously. Because the world today is more populated and convoluted than it was in his day, there are more obstacles and suffering and corruption now simply in terms of numbers, than then. But there are also more resources in terms of communication, technology, and consciousness now than then. We can vibrate higher now too. We need to. We have to save the world every day.

There are only a small percentage of us who know these things. The rest of the people of the Earth are in the dark, and are perpetuating the darkness. And unfortunately, even the ones who are aware, are not necessarily stepping up to their purpose. And although many begin to, most don’t follow through. It is my job to help the rare ones who are empowered to carry out their visions.

“The Problem of Increasing Human Energy”

I discovered this small book: “The Problem of Increasing Human Energy” written in 1900 by Nikola Tesla only after I had been led to understand this was in fact my soul’s purpose on Earth … to aide in the increasing of human energy. The problem part is free will. Not everyone co-operates. But, we have to work around it as we are all here to play our own unique parts in our collective evolution, and free will is the ball in the game.

A big part of my mission is to facilitate people into the most powerful expression and accelerated fulfillment of their soul’s purpose. I am here not only to conduct energy into the world myself, but to make it possible through a variety of means to help hundreds, thousands … millions??? of other people do the same. I have been given many ways to accomplish this, and an immense plan/dream/vision.

So how am I going to do this? With a lot of little things.

First, I take wonderful care of myself, enjoy my life, and stay connected:

Then I do not limit the wondrous unfolding of my visions and dreams by a sense of lack and disbelief. Having already spent most of my life already doing that, I decided to give delusions of grandeur equal time.

Then, I love everyone, I seek joy, I choose peace, and I do what I want to do every day. And what I want to do every day is build this vast and beautiful vision.

I do little tasks. I take it step by step. I put one foot in front of the other. I show up every day.

Forms of Energy

I am all about energy. I conduct energy in all of its (our perceptions of) forms. You can call it Life Force, you can call it Love, Kundalini, Chi … and Money too is just another form of energy. If you understand how energy flows, you will have a new understanding of the economics of vast purposes.

If you believe you have only so much love to give, you are not connected to the source. Do you say to your husband or daughter or girl-friend: “I’ll love you next week, or in a month or so when I have more love”?

If you believe you will have only so much money, then that’s all you’ll have. A favorite quote of mine is from the first airy fairy book for powerful rich white men, “Think and Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill: “If you ask life for a dime, a dime is all it’ll give you.”

As for me, I choose to have access to the unlimited love and abundance of the Universe, and do so because I conduct energy though me unimpeded and without fear. As God’s love goes through me, I get to feel it on the way through and it is wonderful to feel such love for the people who come to my life. As money flows through me, I get to live well as it goes through, and I am blessed to be able to support the prosperity of many others in this world.

With the money-energy that flows through me with all of the divine ideas I have received and am carrying out, I will be the benefactor of the vast visions and dreams of the rare ones who will join me in taking personal responsibility for the healing of the Earth.

Are You Destined to Join Me?

I wish to ally with conscious people who are already effective and powerful in their lives — who have the vision of creating an amazing future and are determined to reach their potential and be a part of helping others reach theirs. I am intentionally manifesting the combining of the purposes of the very rare, very few people on this Earth today who have the courage to be completely authentic and hurl themselves into their ultimate potentiality — and have lots of fun and laughter along the way.

My companions on this journey are not ordinary. They are the Arthurs who discover the sword and have the courage and audacity, and pure naivete … to pull it from the stone and become King.

Or Queen, of course.

Are you one of the rare ones?

It’s Time To Understand HOW THINGS ARE

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The thing most people don’t understand about “Christ Consciousness” is that it was the view that Jesus had that many other people have had before and since. It’s the view we will all see from the vantage point we’re all supposed to reach eventually as we careen through lifetimes. I haven’t been looking through a restricted religious knot-hole in the fence for a long time. The wider view that I speak of includes the experience of energy rushing through our bodies, inner visions, truth that comes all in one piece — which all leads to KNOWING. Then the knowing compels us beyond being encumbered by karma and into dharma. To put it simply, in learning about and making peace with HOW THINGS ARE. You find yourself in the flow, doing what you came here at such a radical turning-point on this planet to do.

DEFINE KARMA and DHARMA

My definitions definition of karma and dharma are a mingling of the standard Indian religions (mainly Hinduism and Buddhism) definitions and my own reception, experience and understanding of truth.

I blend.

KARMA by any other name:  (referring specifically to “negative” karma, although outside of a dualistic perception, karma is neutral)

Hinduism and Buddhism — Karma

Christianity — “you reap what you sow”

Classic Physics — cause and affect

Bubba — “what goes around comes around”

Practical terms — accumulated baggage from previous lives that constantly affect you; residual baggage from childhood of your present incarnation; direct or indirect repercussions from what happened last week; the consequences of what you are doing today and other people’s karmic issues they have with you that you allow them to have with you. We are always involved in a relationship with karma, but we can cleanse the buildup of karmic debt (see: Grace) and then choose to participate exclusively in creating only good karma. This is the ideal.

Me — garbage: a collection of set-backs resulting from unwise choices

What it feels like — suffering

DHARMA by any other name:

Hinduism and Buddhism — Dharma: a more subtle concept with a richness of meaning. It can be put simply for contrast, but then so much is missed. The result is doing your purpose. The reason for the result is acquiescence to the flow. The flow is the order of nature (Natural, Divine and Universal), which is simply how things are. Our relationship to how things are is our dharma. In a dualistic mindset, that means choosing right over wrong, making moment to moment choices to raise your vibration rather than to lower it.

Christianity — “Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all the rest shall be added unto you.”

    • Anti-dharma: “It is hard for thee to kick against the goads.” = resistance to dharma = sin, bad karma.

Quantum Physics — freeing yourself from the bondage of physical laws and participating in the magic of creating your own reality on the wings of divine thought (the flow). It is all energy and our unified purpose in coming into earthly incarnation is to learn to manage our energy. When you are a clear conduit of pure unlimited life-force energy, the possibilities and power to fund them are unlimited.

Bubba —”The sky’s the limit.”

    • Anti-dharma:  “You can’t fight City Hall” = being resistant to the way things are, you get the shit kicked out of you, (and create more bad karma).

Practical terms — once we’ve completed karma 101 (birth sign lessons), we get on to the good stuff that we came here to do. We can also choose not to participate in other people’s derailing karma too. “God doesn’t have any grandchildren.” — Edwene Gaines

Me — unencumbered abandonment to my soul’s purpose

What it feels like — Peace

Concurrency of Karma and Dharma:

We always have a relationship to karma (as long as we believe in it) and it is possible to be in your dharma and be under the weight of karmic debt at the same time. For those of you who are awake, I think it is inescapable to be doing some expression of your dharma no matter how crippled you may feel. BUT … it’s like sailing a sailboat with a ten gallon bucket tied to the keel. It slows you down. It makes you ineffectual and limits you, only because you do not yet believe you are unlimited.

Cleansing karmic debt and removing yourself from participation in other people’s karmic debt frees you to be fully in your dharma and in harmony with the Universe. Result: Christ Consciousness and the knowledge that you came here … were sent here … to do greater things! And so you do. We can all make the choice to live our Ultimate Potentiality.

Most people who are here to bring light into the world are doing what they are supposed to be doing, but they don’t always do it wisely! That’s how we learn and evolve. I’ve been circling the drain for most of my life, learning and steadily advancing through trial and error. I arrive at this moment humbled and chagrinned and in a position to be the most effective I have ever been. I have finally gotten out of my own way.

Christianity: being tried by fire like gold to be purified.

Native American: Bat Medicine — the death of the shaman.

Buddhism: death of the ego and attachment to desire, which creates suffering.

My mother told me repeatedly as I grew up: “You have nothing to justify your existence.” It formed my view of my life and my worth. I could never shake it. I devoted my life completely to cleansing and healing from all of my childhood and early life wounds, but I could never get rid of that phrase and my foundational belief in its truth. It caused me suffering and drove me mercilessly. Now I am grateful, as it proved to be my most powerful weapon once I discovered its secret. One day, it came to me and I just turned to my ego and said: “You have nothing to justify your existence” …

What is my dharma? It can be explained many ways and it has many layers. But one very important way to say it is: I am here to facilitate the activation of other beings in this Cosmic Neighborhood on the cusp of a NEW AGE into the most powerful expression of their soul’s purpose. In short, my dharma is to help other people find and do their dharma at a critical time on this planet. Beyond that … they have to show up.

Don’t we all need some support from other people who can receive the truth? I know I long for it. As it is now, my support comes mainly from my spiritual practice that keeps me connected with my celestial support — my main form of socializing for the last couple of years. For the last many years, in preparation for what is SOON to come, I have retreated into isolation for long periods, with various forms of fasting and prayer. It is how I have done most of the really profound work and have received the vast vision I am determined to get as far with as I can.

Now I am coming out of my time of preparation. What has not killed me has made me stronger! I am ready. Have you been going through an intense time of preparation too? Don’t mistake all of your recent Lessons of Compassion for misfortune or bad karma. You have been in the Bootcamp of your life!

One of my favorite quotes is from Winston Churchill: “Never, Never, Never Quit.”

I can’t quit, but I do give up. I surrender. “I can of mine own self do nothing.”

None of us can do what we came here to do alone. Even organizations are struggling. It’s time for us to all work together. It is the new way to live, do business and THRIVE.

The time is now.

Every INFINITE Thing Just Wants To Be Loved

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We are always being tested.

Why?

Because of RAMPANT ABUSE OF FREE WILL.

Why were we given free will? To always piss off God? Probably not.

Think about it. Remember The Stepford Wives? If you could surround yourself with lovely agreeable androids who were so human in appearance and manner you could never detect they were machines and not human … who were programmed to adore you and always please you, protect you and never let you down — that would be great right?

Actually, it would only be great if you didn’t know they were only loving you because they were programmed to love you. If you knew, you would not feel loved.

“Every little thing just wants to be loved.” (The Secret Life of Bees.)

Here’s just the WAY THINGS ARE (dharma):

God, The Universe, The ALL, Spirit, Unlimited Life Force Energy … whatever you want to call, Him, Her, IT … created beings with free will so that we would have the choice to please God, The Universe, The ALL, Spirit, Unlimited Life Force Energy … whatever you want to call, Him, Her, IT. And when it is OUR IDEA to love God, The Universe, The ALL, Spirit, Unlimited Life Force Energy … whatever you want to call Him, Her, IT … He, She, IT will feel nourished, amplified, loved.

(Translation: When it is OUR IDEA to love God, God will be loved.)

“Every INFINITE thing just wants to be loved.” (Jenifer Humming.)

Free will is not our ticket to get away with sabotaging ourselves, others and the planet. Free will is not an excuse for dishonoring the wonderful gift of perfect unconditional love we are given by God, The Universe, The ALL, Spirit, Unlimited Life Force Energy … whatever you want to call, Him, Her, IT.

We never get away with it. There are always Natural Consequences (karma).

But we are loved and our Angels are doing their best to get us up to speed so we can be happy and live joy-filled lives. Why do we resist so? The problem is, our Angels respect our free will and will leave us alone if we insist. How many times do you leave a friend a voice mail or send emails they won’t answer before you give up?

If you want their attention and to live a life of purpose full of magic and miracles, you have to show up, participate, listen, act … use your free will to be a contender, not a bench-sitter or someone who doesn’t show up for the game at all.

Are you an Earth Angel? Do you have someone in your life who you love and hope loves and respects you because you are worthy to be loved and respected, not because they have to or need something from you they won’t get if they don’t at least pretend part of the time to love and respect you (enough to keep pulling you in to enable them)? Or even though you know they love and respect you, they still make choices that needlessly sabotages successful outcomes that affect everyone and everything — out of laziness, selfishness, fear … or just from the habit you ALLOWED them to form in your relationship with you.

Know anyone like that?

Do you continuously provide to a person (people) in your life opportunities (without personal agenda) to be able to succeed in reaching their goals just because you love them and want them to be happy? Do they gratefully accept all of your facilitation and soar like the eagles you know they could be?

Probably not. Probably they resist and shoot themselves in the foot by squandering your enthusiasm to help them until eventually you stop trying. How does that feel? Does it make your heart sing with joy to watch someone you love and who has UNLIMITED potential force you to separate from them?

No. It probably makes you feel sad (the other end of the polarity of joy).

That’s how the Angels feel when you have better ideas than they do and ignore their whispers— when you drag your feet, do not ACT, impose your conditions such as “I will when I can afford to … I will when I am not so busy … I will when it is a sure thing and not a risk … I will when it doesn’t require any actual commitment to stay at the plate if it gets hard … I will when I don’t have to actually have faith and can do it my way …”

Yeah, right. That’s how that works. Or NOT.

That person (or persons) is in your life as your teacher. They are there to remind you not to make the same mistakes by resisting the guidance of your Angels (or input of crucial binary data: 111111000100110011100110111111110000000010110101011111111010010011).

The test is always this: will we surrender? Will we use our free will to be on THE TEAM or will we always use our free will to slightly or perhaps not so slightly diminish the efficacy of the implementation of the Will of Heaven on Earth by failing to keep our Sacred Contracts and discouraging (not supporting as agreed) those who do?

Remember the “Butterfly Effect“?

What you decide by deciding or not deciding — and what you think and do — has an influence that goes out in ripples (exactly pi) for eternity — that can have either a gargantuan healing effect on the planet and in nourishing God, The Universe, The ALL, Spirit, Unlimited Life Force Energy … whatever you want to call, Him, Her, IT … or a devastating negative harmful effect. It is Physics, Mathmatics, Science, 3rd Dimension Piscean Reality. It is so.

But you change the whole game by playing your Quantum Trump card. That would be a powerful use of your free will.

Meanwhile your Angels (or crucial binary data: 111111000100110011100110111111110000) are waiting for your attention and God, The Universe, The ALL, Spirit, Unlimited Life Force Energy … whatever you want to call, Him, Her, IT is waiting for it to be YOUR IDEA to love Him, Her, IT.

Free will does not mean that you can establish the curriculum.
It means only that you can elect what you want to take at a given time.
The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love,
for that is beyond what can be taught.
It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence,
which is your natural inheritance. The opposite of love is fear,
but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite.
This course can therefore be summed up very simply in this way:

Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the peace of God.

A Course In Miracles


Love is not a feeling. Love is ACTION. Love is pure energy. Love is Everything.

Every INFINITE Thing just wants to be loved.

New Hopes for 2012!

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Am I the only one — or has this last year been a crazy year for a lot of people? Feel free to leave comments! I’d really like to know.

This time last year I had new hopes for 2011 and was really gaining on my goals. However, my Soul wanted a different experience (and why was I the last to know??) and the year took so many twists and turns I felt like I was on Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride. Wheeeeeee! Gotta look at it that way. Thrilling adventure! New experiences. Tests to my endurance came one after another that make rowing 50 miles on a wild lake in the pitch dark crashing into newly downed trees and thick debris from a recent storm feel like a stroll in the park . And I thought the previous 51 years were hard.

I’m not being negative … actually I’m grateful I am still in one piece: NOT injured and very healthy. I’m in surprisingly good shape mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually … on the verge of the harvest and I’m tingling with anticipation. So many people have been supportive beyond the call of duty … so many blessings I would never have experienced if the bumps in the road weren’t there. I have always seen my mountain biking as a metaphor. I always see everything as a metaphor for that matter. Clearly, I do not prefer to ride the smooth trails. Where’s the challenge in that?

I am announcing I am stronger and better than ever. And I am ready for anything. What’s next? So many possibilities. All roads lead to The Cosmos in my life. You can interpret that any way you wish … they’ll all be true.

I welcome you to join me on this ANYTHING BUT BORING road to adventure where anything can and does happen that not even Gabriel Garcia Marquez could dream up in one hundred years of solitude. 

It’s only just begun.