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Hummingbird Handling in Español & English, 101

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Your Dream Is Willing (To Stay or Escape)

A visit from a baby hummingbird is just a usual day in the life of Jenifer Humming, but  holding a hummingbird (colibrí, picaflor, tucusito) is a life-long dream come true for Trina Jacqueline — Jenifer’s talented, interesting well-traveled, multi-lingual buena amiga and assistant from Venezuela and a European resident. Trina is in the United States training to be el jefe of International Fundraising for The Global Rowing Club, promoting Jenifer’s inventions in South and Central America and learning to be an excellent sculler!

Watch our fun little pelicula … un poco en español, a little in English — but a picture is worth a thousand words in any language. If you suspect everything is a metaphor, you are probably right. Subtitles may be on the way so check back.

THE PROBLEM OF INCREASING HUMAN ENERGY

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There’s a great story about how all this started.

I have said many times: “I prototype in my head. It’s cheaper that way!” But the truth is, I go to a place that’s almost like a trance where information floods into my mind and I see something in such detail, I don’t even bother to write anything down because I know it is THERE and I can pull up the file when the time comes to prototype it in reality. But what’s even more interesting is that since I see things so clearly in my mind … I stay in a state of surprise when I realize they’re not here yet.

One morning, I was having a little talk with myself. I decided to distill into one statement once and for all my bottom-line purpose for being on this planet. And what I said aloud to sum it up in one sentence was: “My reason for being here is to raise human energy.”

But then I thought: “Well that’s problematic because humans just don’t cooperate. I need to bypass humanity and wire the planet directly to increase the energy of the entire world.”

Then I sat down and for over an hour watched pictures flood into my head about how to go about setting up an energy grid to cover the planet to bring in energy from the Universe and bring up the vibration of the planet itself, thereby raising the vibration of humans without having to rely upon their participation.

The entire time I was thinking to myself … this is odd. I have never had ideas like this go through my head before.

Later that day, I went for a long walk with a neighbor and about halfway through the walk I told her I felt like I had MEGA volts of energy going through me all the time and I could always feel myself vibrate. Then I mentioned casually that I had some unusual ideas going through my mind that morning and described them to her. She immediately commented: “That sounds like Tesla.”

I asked her who Tesla was … and she said something about inventing a coil and that Thomas Edison didn’t like him. She didn’t bring me completely up to speed as she had only a cursory knowledge of who he was.

When I got home, I did something I rarely ever did. Instead of just forgetting about the mention of something in passing … I immediately Googled Tesla and the first thing I found was a 32 page booklet he had written and published in Century Magazine in 1900. The title of this booklet is: The Problem of Increasing Human Energy.

It stunned me because it was almost identical to what I had articulated to myself only hours before.

Nikola Tesla

So I read it and was even more astounded that he chronicled in those pages the progression of the discoveries of my life to which I have devoted my life as a career! The only thing he missed on was his assertion that we needed to begin supplementing the soil with artificial fertilizers. We’ll talk more about that later.

This exact thing has actually happened more times than I can count … that I have stumbled on books or films or have attended lectures of notable authors explaining principals and information that I already knew and lived by, wrote about and made a living by in teaching (mostly by example) my retreat guests and interns and weekly Organic Raw Food Supper Club attendants — with powerful results — a fact I mention briefly in my post Flow And Grow Rich.

Then I stumbled on this: (VERY interesting … watch it when you get the chance)

The Missing Secrets Of Nikola Tesla

A few years ago I attended an invitation only certification class in Reno for using Ozone in Alternative Medicine. The other students were Physicians from all over the world. I was invited because the owners of the Canadian company that manufactured the ozone machines had purchased one of my medical devices and wanted to become a distributer of them. So to reciprocate, I purchased a high-tech ozone generator as well as a 10 LPM oxygen concentrator to use for EWOT (Google that).

The first few minutes of the class I got a STRONG feeling that I was going to invent something really ground-breaking having to do with ozone and natural health. Later that evening I dined with the owners of the Canadian company and the world’s most renowned expert on ozone as related to medical use. I asked them (because of that strong knowing that overwhelmed me earlier) who was the dead person that invented the device that could produce ozone. They gave me a name that didn’t ring a bell and I felt strangely disappointed. However, before the weekend was over, it occurred to me to Googled it.

I found this:

COLD PLASMA OZONE GENERATION

Nikola Tesla was the greatest inventor the world has ever seen. His fertile brain produced the original designs for all of the electrical apparatus now used to transmit AC power, for motors, generators, lighting, radio, radar, etc. The information about Tesla’s genius has finally been spreading in the last two decades, after decades of suppression. Less well known is Tesla’s involvement with ozone.

In 1896, Tesla was issued a patent for a corona discharge ozone generator using charged metal plates to act on ambient air. He formed the Tesla Ozone Co. in 1900 and went into production of these units. His customers were naturopaths and allopaths who welcomed this powerful therapy into their practices. Breathing of ozone bubbled through olive oil and other oils was widely practiced at this time, and the Sears catalog of 1904 offered a unit for this purpose using eucalyptus, pine and spearmint oils. Tesla produced a gel made by bubbling ozone through olive oil until it solidified, and sold it to doctors. One hundred years later, we are doing the same thing, with Nature’s Gift ozonated olive oil.

After a while, Tesla began to get complaints from some doctors that his ozone generators were burnt out. Tesla was upset by this, so he put on his thinking cap to invent a method of generating ozone that would be immune to failure. He realized that it was current flow to a hot spot on the metal anode that caused the short and the subsequent burnout, and reasoned that the way to achieve long life was to eliminate the current by eliminating the metal. That left him with an electrostatic approach, which he was fully conversant with, featuring high voltage jumping a gap, with almost no current draw.

To carry the electrostatic charge, he used inert gases in glass rods. This produced a cold plasma field which energized oxygen into ozone, and resulted in a generator that proved impervious to burnout. The unit used ambient air, and produced a small amount of ozone as it was waved over a recumbent patient, who breathed it in. Tesla farmed out production of these generators to a Canadian company. There are still some of these units from the 1920s which have been kept in use and are still working as air purifiers today, 80 years later.

Tesla felt that this invention was of such importance to human health that he did not patent it; instead he donated it freely to all of mankind. Unfortunately, this meant that eventually the idea was lost, because there was no recorded patent to look up.

If I go by the information in Think And Grow Rich … according to Napoleon Hill and about 500 REALY RICH people in the last century, Tesla sits at my Cosmic Board Table.

Cool. He’s my hero, you know.

I sort of suspect he MEANS to make The Cosmos happen … just for a starters. I’m going with the flow. I have nothing better to do.

Eagle Dance — Sculling on a Wild Lake

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31.8 Miles — 51.2 Kilometers

The boat stayed on the car. The little red dock got another upgrade. Sunday was going to be in upper 40’s with wind 9 mph or less. I even got an earlier start than usual for the 30 minute drive to the lake. We had been having some rain and snow so chances were the water levels might be up.

I have a confession. Since the Achilles heel injury … I have gotten out of my routine of getting to the gym at 5:30 every morning. I’ve really only been back since Halloween a handful of times. I’ve only rowed a few times too. So I have gained my usual winter hibernation weight … which slows a girl down on a Flyweight. No better reason to get out for a good long row.

On the way in, I stopped at the cabin to find the Deputy on duty, who turned out to be Deputy Staten who was very chipper and sweet on that sunny morning. The lake is open now since the water has come up a few feet. So now I can relax about getting on the lake, but will have to factor in bass boats in my steering.

The first thing I did was place my little red dock … and in the process, managed to stumble on the very rocks I am trying to cover so I won’t fall while carrying my boat. Better to fall putting the dock in place. Luckily, I didn’t get wet, but I did give my left knee a sharp knock that I would have put an ice pack on right away if I weren’t anxious to get on the water.

For some reason, my early start turned into my more usual later-than-I-wanted start. I manage to get going by 12:15. Sunset was going to be at 5:24.

It was in the low 40’s so I wore my neoprene socks trimmed down to my ankles, shorts and two jerseys. One mile into the row … right at Bob’s boathouse, in fact, the long sleeves came off and I rowed sleeveless as is my preference the rest of the day, wind chill factor, or not.

I went ahead and snapped a picture of the boathouse as it is the best indicator of the lake level out there. It has come up several feet, so staying on my GPS line is safer now, but I did make an effort to row inside the line anyway while thinking out-of-the-box, as promised.

Then I started back out and within a few minutes, there was my friend the Bald Eagle flying low and slow 50 feet from my bow. I stopped to watch until he landed on a tree on the opposite bank. I tried to keep my eye on him, but soon rowed out of sight. I saw quite few hawks the rest of the day, but no more close encounters. Watch Eagle Dance below. It is some of slow-motion footage of the Bald Eagle that Bob shot on the day we filmed the Sculling for a Blue Angel Music Video.

It was a beautiful day to be grateful for in early February only a day or two after a snow fall. Despite my later-than-I-wanted start, I fiddled not at all, made no stops longer than it took to take a bite of an apple that I didn’t even finish until I landed and I downed a Doubleshot at about mile 10. I didn’t row very fast, but like the tortoise and the Energizer Bunny, I just kept going and going and going.

My goal for the day was 30 miles. I came in at 31.8.

I’m looking forward to getting back in shape. It’ll take me two or three weeks. I’ll keep you posted.

It was 41 degrees when I got off the water. The little red dock is working like a charm. I decided to pull the car all the way down the ramp to load the boat, which worked out nicely, saving me the long steep climb. But my fingers were just about frostbitten by the time I finished securing the boat. I’ve gotten the hang of cold weather sculling, but Spring is just around the corner and will be so welcomed — even though it means I will have to share the lake with humans again and steer around bass boats.

This time I brought ice packs so I put ice on my knee for the 30 minute drive home, put ice on my knee again when I went to bed and iced it quite a bit today. Other than that, I feel great and my knee is on the mend.

Saturday looks like another rowing day, so the boat stays on the car!! I’ll try to get started earlier and do some real mileage. 🙂

Flow And Grow Rich

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I have posted some pieces on this website that are “previous writings” from a former website and volumes more I could put up, but I have been testing the waters with my new site and am still trying to decide how to go about it all. I have been advised that for successful blogging I should write blog posts that have a wide appeal and are not too personal.

That’s just not my style.

I certainly  (you may have already noticed ) march to the beat of a different drummer. I simply run my life according to the slippery principles of Quantum Mechanics. I was doing it before I knew I was doing it. I am myself, do my own thinking, am quite forthcoming about it … and the Law of Attraction takes care of the rest.

I am not alone living by my knowing of how things really work despite the fact most people are conditioned to operate in denial and opposition to it. It is the winning strategy. It’s called going with the flow no questions asked. Most of the time it makes no sense rationally. That’s where faith comes in and where ego has to let go.

Striving and trying to control things only leads to heart-ache, failure, an expectation of heart-ache and failure and the fulfillment of heart-ache and failure. We are that powerful. We can create that for ourselves over and over. That’s fine for a while if you can let it be your teacher. It has been mine.

It used to be kept a Secret: how things really work. They made a movie about that, by the way. But there was also a book written about it published in 1937 after 20 years of research said to be the number one success book of all time. It was commissioned by Andrew Carnegie to be written by Napoleon Hill about how he and other rich and powerful people BECAME rich. It was actually the first mainstream airy fairy book. Too many notable names were mentioned for it to be discredited. It was embraced. I am sure you have read “Think and Grow Rich.”

Whether Mr. Hill or any of the 500 highly successful people he interviewed and studied knew it or not … their secret of success was based upon the teachings of a fellow by the name of Hermes Trismegistus in ancient Egypt. His teachings were wildly popular in his day but became heretical for some reason these last 2,000 years or so. Therefore the knowledge was passed only selectively and verbally through the centuries (you’ve heard the term: “hermetically sealed”) until 3 anonymous authors dared to write a synopses of it that was published in 1908 called “The Kybalion.” Most people have heard of the first book I mention, but not the second. Deepak Chropha actually wrote his own take on it all in a little gem of a book called “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success.” This philosophy pervades the writings of many current popular authors.

I used to be (still am) an endurance athlete. Then one day I heard myself say “I am an endurance inventor.” Now I call myself an endurance optimist.

I have quite a story to tell and quite a vast vision to build. I intend to attract the many other endurance optimists in this world who will not just skim my words, but ingest, understand and feel as if I am writing their thoughts and feelings. These people will be inspired and delighted because they have the same vast vision to build and have been searching for their place in The Plan. These people have the courage to pay attention, expect and eagerly embrace the answers to their prayers. These people are brave. They are my people.

Where have we been all our lives? Thank goodness we’re here now!

‘Bout time.

In Tesla’s Future

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I am the strongest woman you will ever know, and at the same time … the most fragile. It is part of my strength that I am not only willing to disclose I am fragile, but insist that I be accepted as a whole person with self-esteem issues like everyone else … and not be expected to be an icon.

The thing about me I think that people misunderstand is how I deal with my self-esteem issues. I try to do the best with the things I can control since there is so much I cannot control. What I can control is whether I am healthy and fit, am sincere, have integrity, do my best, stay true to my purpose, never compromise or sell myself out — or be tolerant for longer than it takes to say “have a nice life” to anyone who wants to complicate my life with drama. I think I piss a lot of people off.

New Paradigm

I will quote my hero Nikola Tesla:  “You have the Present. I have the Future.”

Tesla was a generous, sincere, naive and brilliant man who was just himself. He was honest and forthcoming. They didn’t get him back then.

We’re in that future. Are we ready?

I am looking for the other people like me — people who who recognize and appreciate a whole person who is not posing to manipulate. I am ME from the first minute to the last moment you lay eyes on me. I don’t have any interest in being anyone else. I love me. I admire and respect me. I have worked hard to become me. There is absolutely no ego in those statements and the people of this world who have a paradigm of love will get that.

My essence is love and joy. I love and trust everyone … a wonderful way to be. It is so preferable to living in fear and suspicion. But it also means I could sure use a savvy buffer. I have an opening for a handler.

Bentov And The Bell Curve

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Czech born scientist, inventor, mystic and author Itzhak Bentov drew a bell curve to illustrate the evolution of human consciousness. On the left side of the curve is the “throwbacks” from where the human animal evolved — the more primitive of our species, but still alive today in diminishing numbers. In the middle of the curve, of course, is the the majority of our planet’s inhabitants who possess an average level of consciousness, setting the standard for what is considered to be “normal”. To the far right of the curve are the few and the rare humans present on the earth at this time who have evolved to a level of consciousness that is beyond the understanding and systems of measurement that exist today. This is where all humanity is headed and it is only a matter of time before the median will reach this point and the evolved humans on the far right of the new curve will be in a form and at a level we cannot even fathom now.

He asked the question: “Where can we find these evolved humans in our world today?” The interviewer ventured that they could be found at Universities and other places where one might expect to find the intellectual elite. Bentov said no. “In mental institutions,” he said.

Society today does not know what to do with people who exist simultaneously in unfamiliar realms, which consist of anything the average human cannot see or hear or understand. That doesn’t mean they don’t exist. Our senses limit us being able to perceive only a fraction of what science has already proved is there. And yet, when someone can perceive these things without a conventional frame-of-reference to interpret the experience, it is bewildering for them, and socially unacceptable in general.

When all of your life, your paradigm has always been radically separate from what we observe as normal, there is often a desperation to be normal and fit in and muffle the gifts of this higher consciousness. This can create a form of suffering that in most cases will result in a way to deal with the world that will be judged as bad and wrong. It is the rare and courageous thing to be in this position and battle your way to a place of self-referral where you know what is normal for you is not normal for anyone else. And then it is ever rarer to have the audacity and naivete to blatantly explore what it means to be the creature that you are without the understanding, approval or support of others.

The conventional psychological community attempts to quantify and standardize lifetimes of bewildering isolation and disenfranchisement with a plethora of diagnosable personality disorders. Are they real, or just insurance codes to justify medicating brilliance? Who’s to say, but best not to judge. Better to try to understand. Author and Teacher Carolyn Myss states that each soul must have an incarnation when “the tribe” fails them, releasing them to be on a solitary journey in that life to be free to evolve at their own rate.

While I don’t consider myself to be at the extreme right of the bell curve, this solitary journey has been my experience. Am I diagnosable? Am I committable? I guess it depends on your paradigm and your agenda and your position of power over my life as to whether I get to stay free. So far I have escaped awarding anyone with that kind of power over me.

It never occurred to me not to be free. And and somehow I have managed, perhaps because I didn’t know any better, to create a life full of miracles and magic seemingly out of thin air without ever hurting anyone.

Do I suffer more than most? Yes, absolutely I do. I go through life with the feeling of someone visiting a nursing home where all of the residents are in a state of blissful dementia. They are all just as happy as can be and don’t know they are oblivious to reality. If I were presented with the option to become like them … one of them … to be happy and free of the constant discomfort of this awareness, I would not choose it. I couldn’t. So not only am I choosing to be as I am, I am embracing it, and I am going to push my limits as far as I can before I get caught!

~ Jeni Humming, April 2007

Addiction To Failure

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Written in September 2002 during a solitary 21 day fast at my beach house in Annapolis.

I am taking a break from, among a number of things … disappointment. I have to figure out and change whatever it is about me that sets me up for this in my life over and over. Until then, the only control I have over whether disappointment beats me down completely is to remove myself from the people and situations that seem to be the cause — and take measures to regain my perspective. Maybe one of the reasons I seem to be so strong is that I do this from time to time. I see it as an absolute necessity to take the time to myself to remember who I am and what I want, and what is reasonable to expect.

I feel really good right now. I feel energetic and positive and an absolute knowing that I have exciting days ahead — a life of building an empire, as it were, of bringing real answers and real prosperity to myself and many other people. I am at a stepping-off point and this is a crucial time for me. And yes, it’s all about me right now. I has to be that way. I’ve spent my whole life making it about someone else, everyone else. I never felt like I was a worthy recipient of the fruits of my own labor. I gave it all away, always doing whatever I was doing for ego reasons … to somehow gain someone’s approval or love, or to prove something. I lived to facilitate the success of others because I never believed I was meant to succeed. Having an ego does not equal having self-esteem. It undermines it. Never-the-less, I have always known I had something in me that was powerful and amazing but it scared me. Failure was where my parents came from and failure was what I was raised on — it has always felt familiar to me. I have always been too afraid to step out to a place where success and personal power was possible.

I feel in some ways I have put this time of my life off. Success, prosperity, and peace have been trying to come to me for years and I have been blocking it with my fear, and by engaging in the usual failure ensuring endeavors. The time of procrastination has come to a resounding end with the acute events of this year. I, fortunately, have backed myself into a corner (in most cases, people are so hardheaded, that’s what it takes) and I’m about to come out swinging. I no longer have a shred of failure left in me. I don’t have that luxury and I won’t indulge my childish ego-driven fears and weaknesses any longer. I believe that there exists only love and fear, and that really, fear is not real. So that leaves only love. Knowing that (really knowing it) makes you brave. “Nothing real can be threatened, nothing unreal exists. Therein lies the Peace of God.” The Course in Miracles.

I can honestly say none of this is about ego for me anymore. Obviously my ego has never been ambitious. That has been the trick that has kept me down and settling all these years. No, something else has kicked in. It is an inner knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is my soul’s purpose to build something that will bring to myself and many people peace, health, enlightenment, and a means by which for many people to gain prosperity through doing something beneficial and meaningful to them. It is a rare thing for people to have jobs they love and that really make a difference in their lives and others. With me, they will. I just need to find the right people and this is a main focus for me now. Moving forward hinges on it. So I must do what it takes to draw people who meet my standards and then some, so disappointment will no longer be an issue.

I know from my own experience that trying hard gets you nowhere. Something else has to be there. Perhaps being definite about what you want and then making smart choices with sound judgment … in addition to hard work, would bring desired results. That’s the strategy I am preparing to use. It’s called having a plan and taking action. This is a new concept for me … who’s approach has been “I want everything to evolve organically and draw people to me energetically.” It’s time to try something different.